How are you doing today? I have noticed that since you went into retrograde motion - about two weeks ago now - you were sitting at 28 degrees of Virgo and all but moving into Libra, when you decided to pull another one of your retrograde surprises! Now, Ive been onto your game for a long time now, but in saying that, you never cease to surprise me in this fashion. Direct relation to Loki? There has been a lot of mischief, but mostly, there has been confusion in recent weeks. Having had migraines doesn't help. To be perfectly frank, it makes my head fuzzy and I rely on my head a lot in order to think clearly.
When you reached 28 degrees of Virgo, you sat in an exact inconjunct position to my natal Jupiter (150 degrees apart). This awkward position is normally a reminder that a period of adjustment is needed. Unfortunately, I haven't taken this entirely into account and for the last two weeks, I've been in this migraine fog. I can't directly blame you for this, as I should've realised what's been going on. You see, there's been a period of desperation, and when you've all but run out of money, one can't help but feel despair at these times.
Then today, I've had this revelation, and it's been hinting at me these last two days. I was at a local market when I came upon this lovely tarot reader who was accepting donations for payment. So I thought, why not? I could do with some idea of where I'm really heading. The cards spoke of choices, change and taking chances. Among the Celtic Cross spread were five major arcana cards, with the Lovers as my significator, Death, High Priestess, the Moon and the Fool telling me where my path lies.
I realised that after I took this photo, the missing card alongside the crossed four of swords is nine of Pentacles, which, fortunately, is in the past position. Looking at the rest of the deck, there has clearly been uncertainty and a feeling of entrapment in my situation - feelings of my own making. What I really want to do with my life should be at the forefront of my mind now, not muddled up somewhere in the back of it! I was warned once that I've been dragged kicking and screaming to my life's path, and looking back on it, I have indeed! What's been the cause? Fear? Lack of confidence? What other people think? Well you know what, Mercury? Thank you very much for where you currently sit, retrograde at 16 degrees of Virgo, sitting on my natal Nadir (4th house angle of home, where I wish to work and utilise my talents from the comfort and safety of my environment), which, of course, would have you oppose both my midheaven (10th house of public recognition and vocation) and Chiron in Pisces. Your position is giving me more food for thought in that I should push this public persona in the area of healing and spirituality. Lets not also forget how you're sitting at an inconjunct angle with my natal Sun in Aries and my 11th house of networking, as if you're reminding me of my needing to rework this strategy and networking power. Add to that is how it sextiles (60 degrees apart) my natal Neptune in my 6th house of work and health. Chiron makes a nice trine (120 degrees apart) with Neptune, and while I've recognised this, I've allowed myself to get caught up with other areas of my life. Those doors I thought I wanted open hadn't and the one I've ignored for so long should be. I have a Gemini ascendant, which at times makes me a bit flighty. I was told today about keeping one area of my work in the forefront of my mind and allow the rest to fall into line, which makes perfect sense now. I'm not mutually exclusive with my creative passions, as to have one thing only would do my head in. Now, it's about what's really important - for myself and others!
And you're not finished with your retrograde motion yet! Five more days before you turn direct once more and hit those aspects again before moving on, and making those aspects again. At least now I'm awake and aware!
This full moon in Pisces has moved through my 10th house and now I must captitalise on what I really want to do and how best to make it work for me.
Till next time, Wassail!
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